Back to preschool

Today is the first day that Frida and Lena went back to preschool after 2 long months of self-isolation because of covid-19. They were very excited in the morning, shouting and jumping to be getting ready. Once we arrived Frida's schoolmates were chanting her name and she started getting nervous. It was like she was struggling to process it all. The most interesting part of it all was that since I woke up I had butterflies in my stomach, it was like the first day of school for myself. This COVID situation is taking a psychological toll on us all.

Staying home full time with my children and husband was hard, but today I was nervous and a bit sad that it was over. It was a strong bittersweet feeling of gaining time for myself and for working and losing the time with my loved ones.

I clearly remember ...

I clearly remember the moment I saw her for the first time. I remember the exact thoughts that crossed my mind, and there were so many of them. When our little girl first landed in my arms and made me a Mother, I could fully perceive the essence of life - and I am not exaggerating here. Suddenly you feel the universe squeeze into a tiny body right in front of you. Your ancient instincts wake up and you feel the constant urge to protect this little human. You feel the pain of all the mothers that have ever lost their children and of all the children that have never experienced being loved by their mothers like that. And you instantly make a decision to pour all the love you carry in yourself into your baby just because no alternative is possible for you any more...

I'm learning

We have been on self isolation for 2 months now due to covid-19. What this means among others is that my children are not being exposed to Swedish language. Instead they only hear Spanish from me, German from their dad and English from when we parents speak to each other and from Paw Patrol. Their Spanish and German development clearly started flourishing since week 2 of self isolation. However, their English development is only flourishing lately. In fact today I was having a chat with my oldest daughter and she was telling me about exercising to become stronger and about how making videos would help us remember things in the future. She then told me about how showering with hot water will make her "sweaty". And indeed she was speaking to me in Spanish but used the word sweaty in English. I asked her if she wanted to know how to say it in Spanish and I asked her if she would like it if we would speak English to each other. To which she replied, that Spanish was her favourite language and that she wanted to keep learning. "I am still learning mom" ... and that she learned from me :)